Saturday, November 19, 2016

Busy Bee

Hey guys,

My life basically consists of working five days a week, drawing after work until about 3AM and planning photo shoots with Michelle (my muse). She leaves for New Zealand the beginning of January and I need to photograph her as much as possible while she's still home, so I have enough material to work with for the entirety of her yearlong absence.

So I'm kind of stressing about that because we're under a timeframe and our conflicting schedules don't help either. However, I have so many rad ideas for our series and I can't wait to get them all outlined and ready to go for filming! The overall vibe is very dreamlike and psychedelic. I have 16 ideas as of now and my goal is to have at least 24 by the time she leaves, which will set a goal of creating a new drawing and YouTube video every two weeks.

I hope that one day I'll be fortunate enough to live comfortably off my art, so I won't need a full-time job to compensate for my income. That would give me 40 extra hours a week to devote to art and I would be able to pump out a drawing every week with that time.

Of the 16 ideas Michelle and I have brainstormed, we did a photo shoot for seven of them and that's what I've been working on as of now. Thankfully we've gotten pretty good at working together and we're able to tackle about five photo shoots per meet-up.

I'm REALLY letting my imagination run free with my art now and it feels amazing!

Much Love Guys.

“Watching television is like taking black spray paint to your third eye.” -Bill Hicks

Friday, November 4, 2016

Surfer Update

Surfer came into my work last week! I was almost finished helping the woman in line, when I glanced up to my right and saw him standing there. He was smiling at me and said hi. As I exchanged a hello and smile back to him, my heart plummeted into my asshole and I began trembling. I tried to remain cool, but this guy makes me so nervous and I don't know why. She handed me a $100 bill and I was literally shaking trying to collect her change from the drawer.

The moment the woman left and I shifted my attention towards him, he had his fist out, waiting for a fist bump. He asked me how I was doing and what was new in my life, so I informed him that I was starting a YouTube channel and figured that was a good time to say that I was an artist and the reasoning for starting that endeavor. He seemed pretty excited for me and even mentioned that he always wanted to start one as well. In the moment, I was too nervous and forgot to ask him what he wanted his channel to be about.

He only came in to buy two items, one of which being a bottle of tahini sauce, so I asked him what he was going to make with it. His friend recommended that he spread it between dates and eat them as a snack.

Since he only bought two things, the transaction only took 20 seconds to complete and before I knew it, I was handing him his bag. I knew if I didn't get his number, I would be so upset with myself because it's been months of me wishing everyday that he'd come in.

I was too scared to ask him for his number or write mine on his receipt, so I asked him if he used any other forms of social media, like Instagram. He nodded and I asked for his username and got it! I even wrote it down on a piece of paper just in case, so I wouldn't forget it. The moment I was able to, my ass booked it to the bathroom. I whipped out my phone with so much excitement and looked him up on Insta.

He's so handsome. Those eyes, man.

I realized my high school friend was in one of his most recently uploaded photos, so I text her and filled her in on everything. Turns out they work together and he has a second job at another really healthy place. She said she's heard input from both sides, as far as his sexuality goes. So if he is gay or bi, he's either in the closet or only out to certain people. She also told me he has the biggest and kindest heart, he's 31 years old and that he has a condition.

I've yet to hear back from her, but I'm curious to know what 'condition' she's referring to. It could be physical, mental, social, etc. No idea. I was certainly surprised when I found out how old he is, because he doesn't look that old by any means. I figured he was about 27. 

I also believe he's vegan too!! 

Later that night, I sent him a DM that said "Thanks for the Tahini and dates tip, I'm going to try it out tomorrow :)"

Five days later he replied back "Yeah man it was good"

I was hoping we'd be able to start chatting on Insta, but from the way he replied, it doesn't seem like he's interested. The response was so dry and he really didn't set it up for more conversation. 


Sunday, October 23, 2016

Pivotal Moment

I got some new toys! 

I'm filled with so much excitement and giddy going into this next chapter of my life. I finally have the tools necessary to begin my YouTube channel! It took me eight months to obtain them, but the hustle taught me the importance of hard work and that building the foundation of your empire takes time. 

I'm currently working on a commission for one of my managers and once completed, I'll begin filming for my YouTube channel! I decided to go with a Canon T5 as my camera of choice and an iMac, which is a huge upgrade from the laptop I had prior.

I won't have my first video uploaded to my future channel for another three weeks or so (got lots of new technology to figure out), but once I do, I'll make sure to send y'all a link!

What else has happened in my life?

I'll start where I left off last...with that awful date I went on. We haven't spoken since that night. I actually haven't been on any dates since then and I deleted Tinder for a few weeks to focus on other things. Guys can really be a distraction. However, I did re-download the app two days ago because I'm horny as fuck and I desire that male attention. I haven't done anything with a guy, not even kiss, in over four months and I'm going stir crazy. There's a few guys who come into work on a weekly/bi-weekly basis, that I find attractive and probably play for the same team.

A few weeks ago, we dodged Hurricane Matthew and thankfully had zero damage or inconvenience from it. It was hectic at work though and I got some nice overtime from it. My manager gave me a store gift card for working hard and decided to buy a cleanse I had been eyeing since I got hired. It's a two week full body cleanse that detoxes the intestines, liver, gall bladder, lymph, blood and digestive system. Tonight is day 11 (I believe) and I feel really good.

Along with the plethora of green powders and organic supplements I'm taking, I added mushrooms to the regimen. There's several different kinds, but for now; I'm starting out with Reishi, Chaga and Cordyceps. One of the benefits to these mushrooms is their ability to elevate the vividness of your dreams! How fucking rad is that? I already have the coolest dreams to begin with...and this is only going to magnify them. Umm yes please! I read quite a few reviews on Amazon from people who testify to this happening to them as well, along with more energy during the day and improved skin.

I've been able to remember almost every single dream I've had within the last few days, since I started taking these supplements, so I'm going to begin writing more Dream Journal posts! :) I absolutely love writing them!

I'll have more time to do things I want to do, like drawing and blogging, now that I'll be working four days again, rather than full-time. I learned how to write an order for a section at work, so I may be taking over as a section leader soon, which would be tight.

Lastly, I've been obsessed with Netflix. Holy shit it's amazing. After I finished Stranger Things, I got hooked on Sense8, than the first two seasons of The Killing and now I'm onto S1E9 of Shameless.

So yeah, that's about it. Life is cool right now. I'm super excited for what the near future has in store for me.

Much Love Guys.