Before you feel all sad for me...know that it was for the best. I have a friend that's been giving me subtle and not-so-subtle hints that he plays for the same team. That, or he's curious...for sometime now and I finally man up'd and made a move.
Physically; he's an attractive guy. I figured what the heck, I'm so comfortable around him and he'd be a fun person to gain some experience with. So about two or three weeks ago, we were hanging out at my place, watching some TV. At the end of the night, I proceeded to walk him out and that's when I just went in for a kiss. He rejected it and told me he was straight.
If I went into detail about all the signs and things he's done, you would think he's at least bi, but at this point, it's not worth it.
Ultimately, I'm so thankful that nothing happened because our friendship would have gotten weird and now I don't have to constantly wonder "what if". I now know he's not interested (or he's too scared) and I won't be wasting my time anymore. There's plenty of other cute boys in the sea. This I know, because I pretty much see them on the daily now. :)
Enough about that...
I got my first microdermabrasion treatment done on the 9th! Honestly, I don't see much of a difference, however, my face is smoother than it's been in at least five years. I'm going to my 2nd appointment this Wednesday and I'm hoping all goes well!
I've been doing anything and everything I can think of, to clear my skin up. Everyday I've been taking an apple cider vinegar shot, a turmeric shot, a green powder shot, juice and a smoothie. I'm cutting back on even more processed foods and getting the majority of my fat and protein intake from a plethora of nuts and seeds. I've replaced the majority of the foods I was eating, with organic options as well.
Raw Vegan Carrot Cupcakes!
I'm currently weighing in at 145. 30 pounds to go!
Work is going well! I'm getting more comfortable and confident with the tasks expected of me and I really enjoy the people I work with. I get my third paycheck this week, so I'm excited to start investing into my art company. What I'm going to do next is begin advertising on Facebook and find a print shop, so I can make really bangin prints from the series Michelle and I did. Once I obtain high quality prints that are suitable to sell, I'll begin signing up for art fairs and walks. Physically networking myself (rather than hiding behind social media) will be my next big feat.
Right now; I'm currently working on a portrait for a couple that was taken of them on their wedding day. I'm definitely struggling with keeping a balance and getting enough art time in. The struggle is real. I certaintly took for granted all the free time I had prior to having a second job. Between that, sleep, meal prepping, running errands on my days off and exercising...I'm exhausted. But I know the healthier I eat, the more energy I'll have to tackle everything I need to succeed.
I know this is a super farfetched idea, but there's a guy that came into my work who was breathtakingly handsome. He actually talked to me which was awesome, even though I immediately assumed he was straight. If he comes in again and I'm able to muster up the courage, I want to ask him out. Just kidding hahaha...I want to ask him if he'd be interested in being a model for a future drawing of mine. It can't hurt, right?
I'm trying to break out of my comfort zone everyday now! Sometimes you just gotta get out there and take what you want out of life, no matter how scary or unobtainable it may seem. I'm so focused on clearing my skin up to improve my confidence, obtaining my goal body, eating as healthy as possible, marketing my art, making new friends and socializing more with cute guys that give me butterflies!!!
And if you haven't seen Zootopia yet, I HIGHly recommend it ;)
Much Love Guys!