Sunday, March 20, 2016

How to step out of your Comfort Zone

A few weeks ago I experienced my first rejection.

Before you feel all sad for me...know that it was for the best. I have a friend that's been giving me subtle and not-so-subtle hints that he plays for the same team. That, or he's curious...for sometime now and I finally man up'd and made a move.

Physically; he's an attractive guy. I figured what the heck, I'm so comfortable around him and he'd be a fun person to gain some experience with. So about two or three weeks ago, we were hanging out at my place, watching some TV. At the end of the night, I proceeded to walk him out and that's when I just went in for a kiss. He rejected it and told me he was straight.

If I went into detail about all the signs and things he's done, you would think he's at least bi, but at this point, it's not worth it.

Ultimately, I'm so thankful that nothing happened because our friendship would have gotten weird and now I don't have to constantly wonder "what if". I now know he's not interested (or he's too scared) and I won't be wasting my time anymore. There's plenty of other cute boys in the sea. This I know, because I pretty much see them on the daily now. :)

Enough about that...

I got my first microdermabrasion treatment done on the 9th! Honestly, I don't see much of a difference, however, my face is smoother than it's been in at least five years. I'm going to my 2nd appointment this Wednesday and I'm hoping all goes well!

I've been doing anything and everything I can think of, to clear my skin up. Everyday I've been taking an apple cider vinegar shot, a turmeric shot, a green powder shot, juice and a smoothie. I'm cutting back on even more processed foods and getting the majority of my fat and protein intake from a plethora of nuts and seeds. I've replaced the majority of the foods I was eating, with organic options as well.

 Raw Vegan Carrot Cupcakes!

I'm currently weighing in at 145. 30 pounds to go!

Work is going well! I'm getting more comfortable and confident with the tasks expected of me and I really enjoy the people I work with. I get my third paycheck this week, so I'm excited to start investing into my art company. What I'm going to do next is begin advertising on Facebook and find a print shop, so I can make really bangin prints from the series Michelle and I did. Once I obtain high quality prints that are suitable to sell, I'll begin signing up for art fairs and walks. Physically networking myself (rather than hiding behind social media) will be my next big feat.

Right now; I'm currently working on a portrait for a couple that was taken of them on their wedding day. I'm definitely struggling with keeping a balance and getting enough art time in. The struggle is real. I certaintly took for granted all the free time I had prior to having a second job. Between that, sleep, meal prepping, running errands on my days off and exercising...I'm exhausted. But I know the healthier I eat, the more energy I'll have to tackle everything I need to succeed.

I know this is a super farfetched idea, but there's a guy that came into my work who was breathtakingly handsome. He actually talked to me which was awesome, even though I immediately assumed he was straight. If he comes in again and I'm able to muster up the courage, I want to ask him out. Just kidding hahaha...I want to ask him if he'd be interested in being a model for a future drawing of mine. It can't hurt, right?

I'm trying to break out of my comfort zone everyday now! Sometimes you just gotta get out there and take what you want out of life, no matter how scary or unobtainable it may seem. I'm so focused on clearing my skin up to improve my confidence, obtaining my goal body, eating as healthy as possible, marketing my art, making new friends and socializing more with cute guys that give me butterflies!!!

And if you haven't seen Zootopia yet, I HIGHly recommend it ;)
Much Love Guys!


  1. that is AWESOMESAUCE news; granny cougar is VERY proud of you! and that pix of you - hot hot hot!

    actually I have been admiring one of your prints - michelle as earth goddess (I am not sure of the title, I have to go back and check). when you get all set up, I would like to purchase it. howsabout THAT! :)

    1. GC, you're amazing! Ahhhh I can't even put into words how much that means to me. Thank you for supporting something that I put my heart into. I'm thrilled to get everything set up, so I can get you a high quality print of Mother Earth!!

  2. I love how optimistic and excited you seem about life. Even in the face of rejection and working towards where you want to be, you seem to take the bumps in the road in stride. I only wish I had those qualities inside me! Glad to see you working hard with a smile on your face!

    P.S. I know you just started doing yoga, you've even encouraged me to take a class, but have you thought about becoming a yoga teacher? It could be a better side gig to your art.

    1. Why thank you! The older I get, the more I realize how beautiful this life is and how much I want to see, do, experience and achieve. Rejection means you're simply being redirected to something better. You can obtain the same qualities, just redirect some of your thought patterns!

      P.S.S. How did your yoga class go?! I have thought about becoming a yoga teacher, but I'm realizing I don't really enjoy teaching very much. Maybe that will change as I become better in my practice. Who knows? Yoga would be a great side gig to my art. I've also been thinking about becoming a Painting with a Twist teacher as a fun little side gig as well. We'll see :)

    2. "Rejection means you're simply being redirected to something better." I really like this! I try to tell myself something similar when things aren't going the way I want them to.

      The yoga class actually went really well. I liked it a lot but it's so expensive. I'm lucky that I live in a city with a couple of studios that all have beginner's discounts so I think I'm going to keep hoping around until I get through all of them haha

      I've never heard of painting with a twist before, but that sounds really fun. I hope you can make it happen. I admire your hustle. I've been working in an office environment for 2 years now since I graduated from college and I totally see how people can get so comfortable with the stability of it (although one can lose their job at any point). I wish I had the personality to branch out and do some self-employment work so that I can live the way I want to.

    3. I'm happy you enjoyed the class! Definitely take advantage of all the beginner discounts haha you'll also get a feel for which studio/instructors you prefer. Plus you'll meet more people doing that. Shit, I should do that too haha Groupon and LivingSocial have really affordable deals for yoga packages.

      Me too, I think it would be a cool gig. I'm barely able to manage my time as it is, so that wouldn't be something I looked into for a little while.

      If you could do any self-employment work, what would it be? Every personality can appeal to someone. Who knows, maybe your endeavor would take off and you could live the way you want to. You can't win if you don't try. :)

    4. Yeah I came across LivingSocial the other day, they've got some good deals on there. How social have your yoga classes been? Have you been able to meet new people? I've found that everyone is so focus on what they're doing that there's very little socializing going on besides the occasional smile. Obviously everyone wants to get a good workout in, but it seems hard to socialize during it haha But I'm definitely looking to meet new people, making new friends is always nice.

      I'm not really sure. I've thought about getting into statistical consulting. Mostly because I'm a math person and the money could be good if you've got enough clients but I think I'd enjoy teaching much more. Think ESL or math/science. I don't like 9-5 because I don't have the concentration for it. I'd rather do 6hr days for less pay or 4hrs each in the morning and night with the afternoon off.
      I just want enough to enjoy myself, not starve, travel.

    5. LivingSocial is awesome! Based off the yoga classes that I've been to, most people socialize after the workout. I'm usually pretty quiet beforehand, stretching and preparing for my practice on the mat. I went to one studio that I discovered through Groupon, befriended the instructor and she gave me several additional free classes. But I guess it all depends on the vibe of the class. I try to bring a friend, which makes it even easier.

      That would be cool! Is that something you would need to get licensed in or return to school for? Or could you simply start a blog/website and branding yourself?

    6. I'm trying out a new place this weekend so fingers crossed! I haven't made many friends since I moved to where I am now. It's surprisingly easy to be alone in a big city. But I've gotten a lot more comfortable with doing things on my own too.

      I'd probably need to at least get a master's in statistics to even be creditable. Also, there's a lot of techniques and ideas I don't know about so it'd be good for me. I'd also need to have the website and brand myself. From what I hear, it can be pretty difficult to get started and reach a point where you have enough clients/money flowing in to be stable.

      Also, happy birthday! I have a friend who's vegan and have been trying to eat vegan myself. Even though it's surprisingly easy to do so, I've found it much harder to avoid eating too many carbs or just too much food in general.

  3. With looks like that, I still wonder why you are not so confident about yourself. I mean, I look like an ogre but i always feel like i am poised and groomed to rule an empire.

    And kudos to all the efforts you're doing. I am currently devouring a cheeseburger and it's been two days that i am eating food that i cooked. It's not easy. I have to do it because of the nature of the new line of business I have started.

    Anyway, as for guys, well, I think you should not be too comfortable with your guy friends or even attempt to be romantically involved with them. Well, at least with you closest friends. It could be tragic for you and hurt yourself. I'm saying this out of experience.

    I can't move on in my life because i fell in love with my bestfriend. And this is going on for more than 10 years. I find myself dating guys while thinking of him. He doesn't know. Ah, there's a tragic life.

    But enough about tragedies. i think this is the best time for you the break out of your comfort zone. And ten years from now, you won't look back with regrets.

    1. I'm certainly not unconfident. It's about average right now, but it's slowly increasing! I'm learning to not be so hard on myself, to forgive, let go and not constantly second guess my intelligence. Haha Shrek was an ogre and he got the hottest chick in the land.

      I would highly recommend meal prepping if you have minimal time to cook for yourself. You'll save a ton of money in the long run and you'll know exactly what you're eating. Hopefully your new line of business if going well.

      Haha it was a lesson learned. I have zero intentions to ever hit on that friend or attempt to be romantic with him ever again. I just needed closure and I got it. That led down a road with a dead end and toxic emotions. No thank you. I hope you're eventually able to move on from the feelings you have for your friend. That really sucks. I wish it was easier to control who you had feelings for. Some crushes really suck.

      I'm working on breaking out! :) Thanks for commenting