Why am I so fucking shy?
There's this guy I've been eyeing at my gym for months now who's a total stud. Yet the second we lock eyes, my stomach drops like I'm plummeting down a rollercoaster and I look away instantaneously. Why is it so hard for me to stare back at him and smile, spark up a conversation and become friends?
He's so beautiful: Tall, fit but not too muscular and has a baseball player's stature. I'm way too attracted to this guy. His presence alone makes me nervous.
Occasionally we finish lifting at the same time and end up next to each other in the stretch area doing abs and he always pushes me to keep up with him. He makes me feel giddy.
The fact that I get excited to go to the gym in hopes that I'll see him there, just reinforces I need to talk to this guy, regardless if he's gay or not. I'm sure he'd be a cool friend, considering we see each other about 5 nights a week.
Hopefully writing this down will give me some incentive to get over this issue and approach cute guys. But let's be real, the next time I see him, I'm going to have a mini heart attack instead.