Well, we’re just friends.
Actually, I’m pretty sure he’s talking to another guy and
maybe even dating. I’m not entirely sure but regardless, I’m happy for him.
Through this experience, I’ve realized I wouldn’t be able to do a long-distance
relationship anyways. It’s just not for me.
Without this experience I would have never known that. “Everyone
is meant to show you some side of you whether it’s positive or negative.”
Michelle told me this and these words are so true. He taught me a lot
about myself and what I want from a relationship and the kind of guy I’m
looking for.
"Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it,
the more it will elude you. But if you turn your attention to other things, it
will come and sit softly on your shoulder." -Thoreau
The same goes for chasing love. If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you know I went through an era of chasing love using dating sites and it was mostly for self-approval. I never wanted to admit it, but I enjoyed the obnoxious amounts of messages and positive feedback guys would leave me on these sites. But I was doing it for all the wrong reasons. I was simply seeking validation and loved flirting with cute guys. I needed that feedback, because I had never received that form of recognition from guys before. At the time, I was too frightened to flirt with guys outside of the virtual world.
The same goes for chasing love. If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you know I went through an era of chasing love using dating sites and it was mostly for self-approval. I never wanted to admit it, but I enjoyed the obnoxious amounts of messages and positive feedback guys would leave me on these sites. But I was doing it for all the wrong reasons. I was simply seeking validation and loved flirting with cute guys. I needed that feedback, because I had never received that form of recognition from guys before. At the time, I was too frightened to flirt with guys outside of the virtual world.
Anyways, after he left, I did a lot of self-reflecting. Going into
this semester, I made a promise to myself. That no matter what life had in
store for me, I would place my health and school first. Unfortunately, I wasn’t
doing too good of a job balancing my insane school workload. We we’re Face
Timing almost every night and I began falling behind in school. Fortunately, he
understood and we text every now and then instead. It was one of those relationships that sucked me in and than fizzled shortly after.
The craziest thing is that I graduate college and move back home in
less than four months. It’s the most exciting and nervous feeling. I miss my
family and Michelle so much. I’ve become so conditioned to the life of school,
homework, professors, library, and repeat. I’m so beyond ready to move on from
this cozy, chapter of my life. College is the most fun I
never want to have again.
As soon as I move home I'm going to redecorate my room, join a gym and get a website up and running. Clean eating, fitness and art make me feel the happiest. I'm not really considering Grad School for my major. Rather, I'd like to play with the idea of getting a degree in Graphic Design at FAU.
College has been one hell of a ride. And I can’t thank all of you enough who have helped shape and encourage me through all my low times.
Much love guys!
Much love guys!
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