Thursday, January 5, 2012


For the first time in my life I feel alive. I have the same feeling when I wake up in the morning, that I used to have when I was little. I have energy and drive to take on the day.

My major change is BY FAR one of the best decisions of my life. This semester is going to be absolutely amazing. I don’t have that dwelling feeling of not pulling off decent grades and struggling to scrap by with a B or C. Or the feeling of hating all my classes. I look forward to school now.

I know I can achieve straight A’s this semester. However, I don’t want to get straight A’s for my parents. I don’t want to get straight A’s to show off to my friends. I want to get straight A’s for me.

Not to toot my own horn, but I know I’m good at art. My confidence in my artwork is definitely increasing since I practice everyday now. I was once the little boy who used to throw away his art for no one to see. Now I have a Facebook page dedicated to my art. I have done a 180. I also just ordered business cards, I'm working my own website and getting my name out there.

I even got the approval by a restaurant in Wilton Manors who wants to display my artwork!

This semester is all about me. I am focusing all of my attention on improving every aspect of myself. My friends are constantly telling me I have all this potential. I’m ready to ignite the spark within me.

I learned that society attempts to make people think a certain way. I had the impression that college was a Van Wilder movie 24/7. I used to follow the crowd. I entered college and did just that. I became a little clone. I thought you could ONLY be cool by drinking, joining a Frat and going to parties. Stupid, I know. And look where that got me. That taught me I hate drinking and Greek life was the fakest experience of my life.

I do my own thing now and I have never been happier. I am gay. I love God. I love art. I love my family and friends. I love to exercise. I love me.

So bring it on life...because I'm ready to kick ass.


  1. AGD: You are finding your own voice by experiencing and learning what works for you and what doesn't. Your growing awareness of yourself reflects some of the maturity that comes from living on your own.

    Some people use college as an extension of high school and treat it as fun time but really it is laying the foundation for your working life and career opportunities. Sure, have fun and experience new things but also focus on creating successful opportunities for yourself.

    One of the good things about college, is after the first two years of requirements, you can focus on your major topics, which hopefully drive your passion. The more you like the subject, the more effort you are going to put into it and will be reflected in good grades and outstanding output.

    And as discussed in previous posts, you can combine your art with other related areas like graphic arts, animation, digital media, etc.

    My niece has shown an interest in drawing and painting, she's taken a few classes, and to encourage that further, this year for christmas we got her an iPad2 so she can create art digitally. You might want to consider getting into digital art as well -- but wait a few months for the new iPad3 to come out.

  2. Lol, I signed up for a 9AM class for the same reason you did. Be more productive etc.

    I hated every single day of it, hahahaha. Then I ended up taking naps during the day anyway.

    There is no other time in my life I can think of doing something like that, certainly not in high school and not during a 9-5 job, so enjoy waking up in the afternoon, (11 was honestly too early for me too) because you're not going to have it forever.

  3. I am very happy for you. You have taken control of YOUR life. This will be the foundation for the rest of your life! Congrats!!

  4. That's great that you have discovered that level of self-confidence. I was still slowly building it up during college, and even now I have a ways to go.

  5. Great. Glad you are feeling good. Kick some ass in the new year! And by the way I have been following your blog for awhile and love it. Although it is hard from a distance, I hope that relationship keep on growing. You both deserve it.

  6. Oops. Sorry. The danger of sliding from one blog to the next. Well, the first part was right and may the second piece of it happen soon as part of the kick ass process.