Saturday, January 14, 2012


We’ve all experienced those times in our lives when we’ve said, “I’ve had it. I'm not dealing with this shit anymore. I must make a change now.” Whether it was your diet, lifestyle, sexuality, financial situation, living conditions, career, relationship, etc.; pain can be the greatest stepping stone to healing and a prosperous life.

I said those words when I no longer allowed the fears and paranoia associated with my sexuality, chain me down and dictate my life.

This was a magical moment. Pain became my friend. It forced me to take immediate action and produce new results. I became even more compelled to act, when I anticipated how changing would create pleasure and peace of mind in my life. That thought of peace outweighed all the fear I had to finally take the first step, so I did. I came out and it became a snowball affect.


  1. AGD: You took pro-active and positive steps to change your life. For you, tackling what was missing motivated you to greater purpose. On the flip side, there are people who let fear drive their decisions and it's just as easy to not act, because fear of failing was stronger than the rewards of succeeding. I think in life, one has to take chances but not be reckless or immune to the potentials risks out there.

    So where are you on finding a BF? Are you taking positives steps to make that a reality? While working on your buff body, remember to nurture the beauty inside you and to look for the same in others.

  2. I applaud you. You took control of how being gay affects your life vs letting being gay take control of your life. I wish I had that courage..

  3. My Goodness I love it when someone that is 25 years younger than me says something that speaks to me!

    Im reading your blog and it says, "I'm a 20 year old and FINALLY coming to terms with my sexuality!" At 20 FINALLY anything is most impressive!! At 20 I was still wondering if I liked bacon on my cheeseburgers!

    Me like yourself give me such hope in the future of the bi/gay community! I see generational maturity kicking in and am excited that the insecurities and issues of the generations before you are being addressed!

    You have every reason to be excited about the future. You shall experience things that many of us before you could only imagine!

    As for getting to know your Lord better...always remember;

    "Thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.
    I will give thanks unto thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made
    marvellous are thy works, and that my soul knoweth right well!" PS 119

  4. Is there a way I can contact you? I felt the same way, but I am not able to get out of it.