Sunday, October 24, 2010


Yep you read correctly, I finally met Socrkid in person! His schools soccer team was in my city to play my schools team and the opportunity finally came up.

Friday night we met up at his hotel the night before the game. I was so nervous as I pulled into the parking lot. I got there fifteen minutes early and hyperventilated in my car. It was so wierd to think I was about to meet someone for the first time, but we knew so much about each other already.

For some reason, all my nerves went away once I saw him face-to-face. Maybe because I know him so well. Or maybe because I felt so comfortable around him. In any event, we sat on a nearby bench and talked about anything and everything. It was so cool to finally talk to another gay guy, who is so similar to myself! Those two hours went by in 10 minutes but I cherished every second of it.

Socrkid is a homie for life!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Ten People Know I'm Gay Now!!

Hey guys.

This past weekend I went to St. Simons Island in Georgia. We stayed at a church called Epworth by the Sea and it was an amazing experience. I got to meet so many people my age from surrounding colleges including FSU, UCF, FAMU and UGA. We had several amazing worship services. The youth pastors from each campus spoke, than we played games, roasted s'mores by a bonfire, etc. It was a really cool experience.

Now I’m just getting back into the swing of things. I have been eating healthy, working out almost five days a week, drinking tons of water, studying a lot for school and just living life how I want.

I still can’t believe how much I have grown as person in less than three months. I am so much more mature and confident living in my own skin. I have come out to TEN people. This Christmas Break I am coming out to my parents and all my close friends back home.

I no longer hate myself for being gay. I have learned through this journey, that being different makes you irreplaceable. Yes, it is extremely difficult to live with at times and I break down in my room occasionally, but I always get up stronger than before. When I start to feel down, I turn to prayer.

Starting my coming out process has been the most emotional experience of my life. I was so accustomed to bottling my emotions up and swallowing my pain. I am learning to express them in a positive way and I am learning its ok to ask people for help. At least that's what my counselor tells me! :) I love you Lauren!!

If you are reading this and you're still in the closet, just know this: People are sooooo much more accepting then you think. Coming out gives you the ability to blossom into the person you day dream about becoming. You DESERVE happiness and when you feel ready and comfortable, come out at your own pace. If you don't have anyone to talk to, but you're ready to begin the process, use this helpline:  

Shine bright and love yourself!

Much love guys!