Thursday, August 12, 2010

My Turn to Decide

I was driving to the mall to get some clothes for school today and a song came onto the radio. This song literally was written about my life. Its called 'King of Anything' by Sara Bareilles. The lyrics in this song match my life to a tee! I'm in love!!

 All my life
I've tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt
And hide
Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

I personally struggle with the thoughts of what others will think of me. To be labeled as "the gay kid." I'm so much more than that and I hope people don't stereotype me just because of my sexuality.

So if you haven't already read my last blog post, I plan on coming out of the closet to my sister this weekend, if my brother can come into town. I want him to be there when I tell her. I also decided when I get back to school, I'm telling two of my best friends right away.

Its about time I start living my life instead of hiding from the world and worrying about what other people will think of me. I know there will be individuals who are going to gossip, but I've mentally prepared myself for that. Since making this blog, I've become a stronger and more confident person, someone that's ready to start showing people the real me.

I've been waiting for someone to tell me that it's my turn to decide...and that person was me all along.


  1. thats whatsup!!! haha i wish i could be like. i literally have tried to tell my best friend but it didnt work so i put it off til next summer but whatever. thats awesome your gonna take the initiative and tell people.

    that was a sick picture you drew too! not much of artist but i like looking at pictures and drawings! i was the guy in my classes that would make the videos and stuff. me and some friends did one for our science class and she ended showing the whole grade. it was sick and soo funny!

    dont want to be weird or anything but you got a way to talk to you other than here in the comments? like email, aim? if not thats cool man

  2. Thanks guys. Its about time, I probally will kill myself at the rate that this eats at me keeping it bottled up so time to spill :)

    And gracias socrkid, its funny because when I started drawing the picture my roommate got all excited and started drawing too, although hes awful, but white lies cant hurt haha Id love to talk w/ you, hit me up on my email I dont have an aim so i guess email will have to do for now